Forgive yourself for the bad decisions you made, for the times you lacked understanding, for the choices that hurt others & yourself. Forgive yourself, for being young & reckless. These are all vital lessons. And what matters most right now is your willingness to grow from them.
Everything gets a bit uncomfortable when it’s time to change. That’s just a part of the growth process. With effort, things will gradually get better. Be patient and remind yourself: Life never gets easier, you just get stronger.
If you don’t allow yourself to move past what happened, what was said, what was felt, you will look at your present & future through that same dirty lens, & nothing will be able to focus your foggy judgment. Realize this. What you do now matters more than what happened yesterday.
Impress yourself. Show yourself that you can grow and get better. It’s never about competing with anyone else. In the end, it’s just you vs. you.
You need to do hard things to be happy in life. Because the hard things ultimately build you up and change your life. They make the difference between existing and living, between knowing the path and walking it, between a lifetime of empty promises and one filled with progress.